This is my Happy Wollf picture. I may use him as my Avatar. Just looking at this animal makes me smile. His smile is a lot like your less than humble scribes own. I identify with the Soul of the Wolf more and more each day.....

As much as I've shared in these pages, there are still volumes of even more intimate thoughts and feelings tto be delved into. I had thought of starting the new Blog, but I think that I'll just stick to this one.

"I don't know what I'm getting myself into." I've been told that once or twice in my life. That's incredibly true. I've always been quite impetuous in my decision making. The end results of which have varied between the extremes of Grand success and Total fiasco.

Looking back and meditating on some of the bigger decisions of my Life so far, I'm pretty damm pleased with the cumulative quality of all those choices. Some have hurt quite badly as you know. Some have brought Joy beyond belief.

Some have been both. Life is like that. I'm in such a strange place right now, I'm actually at a loss for what to write. I so very much want to write of Love. I want to describe what I envision as my next evolutionary step in my Journey.

To be able to say that the way that I feel right now is akin to putting on a fresh out of the clothes dryer, thick terrycloth robe on a cold evening, curling up in front of a fire with a good cup of coffee and a favorite book of short stories, some soft jazz playing in the background....

I'd like to write about the feeling that I'd have after a three hour phone conversation with a person that I love and want to be with as badly as I want to breathe. That sensation of fulfillment without being fulfilled. A bittersweet embrace of electrons rather than skin.

The Wollf's perspective. Alone and alive and searching and finding and never wanting to let go and.........Being. Embracing the moment with innocent eyes, throwing off the blindfold of jaded experience and living each moment as if it were for the first time.

Slow down to enhance the taste of experience.

Yup, Wollf had an epiphany tonite. Such a mystical experience, looking back on it, that I have no words to describe eloquently enough to do it justice. I'm at a loss.

And so dumbfounded am I at my good fortune and my emotional escalation...that I won't even try. I am drained, as after an evening of intense lovemaking in candlelight. My eyes are not capable of staying open. I'm punch drunk, flustered, and oh, so pleasantly, dreamily sleepy.

Sorry that I can't find any words to describe how I feel tonight. We'll have fun tomorrow, I promise........'Nite,
Wollf